NOTE TO MY SELF

Hi Pipit in the future,
If you read this, you are more mature, your English are improved, your mental health is fine, achived all of your goals, or perhaps you are in other country, in the other hemisphere, and everythings are okay.

Anyway, how are you? How do you feel now? How's in the future's going?
that type of questions you need to hear the most, when you feeling down, when you feel lonely, when no one agree with your thought, when you feeling anxious about something, probably it is a simple problem but as an introvert person, that's important, right?
And at the same time, you feel like people don't care about how important is "mental health", how if people have a traumatic, how if people can't healing their 'mental disorder' because of small problem that you made. And you afraid about that.

Are you still care about other people feels? that's a good tho.
But make sure, you will be alright. Don't too much think as always, I know you are such a good person, you  mention other people's name in your pray. But sometimes you forget with your own.
Don't do that again, in the future.

These days, you're feeling unwell, but you trying to keep smiling, keep excercise, keep productive to raise your mood by your self, no body else, however you were trying to share how do you feel exactly, through this. You know it tough. But one day, if you read this, you will be amaze, with what you did before, because you metter. You deserve everythings that make you happy, as always, you trying everythings by yourself, with Allah is your guide. And one day, you did it. Believe in your self.

At that time you still trying to conceive, but you need to achive your goals, you need to arrange your future, you don't want to waste your time, because you late 20's. When you feeling blue, you keep think positively, and I proud with you, other than that no body say this. You can get through all of this.

|It's ok not to be ok, you deserve better, you can do it, everythings will be alright, that's all motivation words that you keep saying for your own mind. With all of the anxious feeling that you have. You such a strong girl. You did everythings by your self.

From that day, you trying to ignore toxic people, but you still a caring person. and once again, I proud with your self. You had a difficult year. It's not really your problem, but as a caring person, you decided to do something, but its hurt you. That's ok, you still a good girl. Ignore all of what people say about you. You enjoy with your own life, sing a song in your room, sit down in front of your PC whole day, keep studying English, because that is a part of your goals, and also, you love cooking and baking so much, what about now? Are you being a popular content creator? If yes, congratulation, you deserve it. at least, you show your love through cooking or baking with other people.
F*cking bullshit, to whom judge you.

When you write it down this, you feel better, you keep trying to write with your limited word, but i apreciate that. What about now? are you fluent in English? are you ready for teach your kids in English? are you ready arguing with people in English? or you forget about bahasa already? hehe i'm kidding.

Where are you now? Where do you live?
Did you reach place that you put in your bio on facebook when you in senior high school?
If yes, i'm so happy about that. Your life is changing.
How many stamp that you have in your pasport now? I'm curious about that.

But the most important things with your life, you feel more happy, you forgive people that make you sad in the past. You became more religious person, more beautiful even you are old now, hehe, more stylish even you love daster very much.

What about your hair? keep falling out?
What about your kids? They are healthy?

What about your study? Are you Master of Fisheries now? PNS?
or are you study in culinary arts? that is your another goals, i hope you did'nt forget about that.
Are you going for Umrah? or you Hajj already? masya allah, i'm happy to know that.

Pipit, once again, you deserve better, with your life, your little family, your future even for your mental health, ignore toxic people that make you feeling blue.
Do the best for everythings that you want to do, at least you try it.
Stay strong girl, we can do it.
Stay healthy because you are in pandemic era.

note : 
it might a long paragraph, i will update it, if i think you should know if something happen in the past, and probably you forgot. xoxo



With love,


You in the past

 

this is the current situation, when you write this (so messy)